Goals for a New School Year

I hate this time of year because it gets cold and grey and reminds me of bad times. The main thing it reminds me of when I look up at the cold grey sky is my mothers funeral. The cold air, the grey sky, the ground that was solid and moist with the snow... the darkness in the hole before the coffin was placed in the ground. Yeah I hate this time of year... but I'm determined to keep dry eyes and go throughout the school without having to miss a class or even a whole day because of depression and tears. Even when I am depressed I smile and laugh not from force but because I know it won't bring anyone back by being depressed or uppity about yo ma jokes. I'm not sure what I'm getting at but I just know it's nice to get things off my chest while being anonymous... and someday I would like to help others who have to know this kind of sorrow.